I hit a raised maintenance cover today. You know the one that is almost always spray painted orange? The road to the train station is under construction and being repaved…
It actually gave me a quite a jolt.
My first thought was “Dang, I hope I didn’t ruin the car.”
My second thought was “Where did that come from?! I didn’t see it..!”
My third thought was “I wasn’t really paying attention, was I?!”
My last thought gave me a shocking revelation…I was not fully present when I hit it head on. I don’t even recall what I was thinking at that moment…
I remember a story my first mindfulness teacher once told…you would be driving along and you don’t really realize how you got from point A to point B until you get there. But even then, you are already on the next item on your mental list…
That’s the tough part, isn’t it?
It’s hard enough to stay present…but to be present ALL THE TIME…is almost impossible (well, for me it feels insurmountable!)
The “old” me would have berated and admonished myself to nauseam such that my whole day would have been shot. The words of the day would have been “fail, fail, fail.”
The “newer” me did something that would have given the “old” me an ulcer….I gave myself a break. The words of the day were, “this is not a big deal.”
…and you know what? It really is not a big deal.
Sharon Salzburg (she is a mindfulness teacher who focuses on how we can practice loving kindness–and no, it’s not the mushy kind of stuff! Google her. She is awesome! ) says give yourself a break. Be kind to yourself. Don’t be too hard on yourself.
So, there you have it. My secret weapon. I have learned to give myself a break.
I also realized that I will probably be “under construction” for a long time…things ultimately will break down and I would have to rebuild…
Come to think of it, I like “under construction” better than “work in progress” since some days, I don’t feel as if I’m progressing at all…but I’ll save that for another blog…
Have a great week, everyone!