I woke up angry today…#BLM

Like the rest of the world, I feel angry. So much pent up rage.

Blinding and white hot rage that brings tears to my eyes.

I watched the murder of George Floyd several times and each time, I look for any sign, any sign at all, for any compassion, for any humanity at all from the police officers.

How did we get here? How can we treat each other with such contempt?

I read somewhere that we are now dealing with two viruses–COVID and systemic racism. One major difference is that one needs more than a vaccine…

It has been weeks since the world erupted, with continuing protests all over the world. Yet, I wonder how did we get here and how do we make amends?

Peter and I had a somber dinner conversation about how Olivia’s generation is faced with so many challenges like climate change, systemic racism, an older generation that is blind to all the problems their selfishness has caused, where governments are more concerned about the stock market than the lives of their citizens. The list is long…

Every man for himself. This is how we got here. Pure unadulterated selfishness and unquenchable thirst for more…more money, more cars, more houses, just more. We got lost and along the way, we forgot to take care of each other. We forgot that we need to help each other to move forward, to make a better world for everyone.

Yet, perhaps it is not too late…

There was a Black Lives Matter protest yesterday down by the water and Olivia asked if we should go. With COVID, I emphatically said no. How can we help the cause if we get sick? We have been supporting local black businesses but somehow it is not enough. Not quite enough.

This question still plagues me…what do we need to do to make amends?

I don’t know. Do you?

What I do know is that we are at a crossroad. Like Robert Frost’s poem “The Road Not Taken”, we need to take the road less travelled by. We need to look inside ourselves and make a commitment that if we want a better world, we need to look at ourselves in the mirror and make a change (like Michael Jackson’s “Man in the Mirror”). And the next time, I will no longer look away when I see something wrong happening as most of us do. No more. I will no longer be complacent.

It is time for change. Our generation failed. Yet, as an optimist, I don’t believe it is too late. We still have time. We need to change this world for the better…for Olivia…for all our children’s future. We need to start NOW.

#BlackLivesMatter.

Love always.

Debbie

It takes a village…a look back at 2019.

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As the year comes to a close, I realize that 2019 has been a year of contradictions….full of ups and downs, a few tears from broken hearts but quickly replaced by an inner strength, and old friends lost but replaced by newfound friends.

However, through it all, I realize that it takes a village to get us through difficult times as well as share the laughter and good tidings during good times.

One recent example was when Olivia’s heart was broken one December day.  As she stood on our driveway, numb, dazed, blindsided, and not knowing what to do next, our neighbor from across our house came to the rescue. Peter and I were out shopping when we got a text from Oliva that “Aunt Mo” came and she made her soup, gave lots of hugs and stories about teenage boys not mature enough, and told her that she should not take high school boyfriends so seriously; the world is her oyster–there are so many more adventures waiting for her! Aunt Mo and Uncle Ray have been our neighbors for as long as I can remember and they might as well be family.  Broken heart restored and moving on…

Another recent example is when Olivia had a panic attack at school and her best friend Carol, Olivia’s math teacher Mrs. I  and her guidance counselor Mrs. D. took charge and made sure that Olivia felt safe and grounded during such a scary incident.  To this day, Olivia’s teachers check up on Olivia…I know because I am included in the check-in emails they send her. I also know that her friends like Kathryn and Khalid keep her focused and constantly remind her to keep it real…

As for me, I recently went back to my hometown in the Philippines.  I have not been back for almost 35 years and it was just because of Olivia wanting to “find our Filipino roots” that we went.  I left the Philippines when I was in my teens and I really never expected to come back since there are so many more other places in the world to visit!!  However, I was glad I came back as I got to meet up with my former classmates who still lived there and I was regaled with stories about how my nose was always buried in a book and somehow missed all the shenanigans they got into! My long lost friends were so warm and kind and actually took the time to meet with me and point out our old haunts…I had forgotten how warm and kind my Filipino culture is!  I will be back for another visit, I’m sure.

I’ve always tried to do everything on my own.  In honest truth, I like doing things on my own; I like being in control and not have to rely on anyone.  However, this year taught me that being part of a village is what makes life so much more interesting and more fulfilling.

As I read my 2018 post Happy New Year!, I realize that 2019 was even more wondrous as it made me realize that I am blessed to be part of an incredible group of people who has my back and look out for me even when I least expect it.  Thank you to everyone who made my 2019 the most awesome year ever (you know who you are)!

I hope you had a wonderful 2019 as well and looking forward to 2020!

Happy new year, everyone!

Love always.

Debbie.

Noah, The Brave Little Bunny

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I finally did it.  I had the courage to publish my first-ever children’s book!

It is about a little bunny named Noah, who just wants to go on adventures–not a typical bunny, that’s for sure!  He goes on an epic journey and on the way, he learns to trust himself and makes a new friend.

For me personally, just being able to do something so different from the world of numbers and accounting theory is a journey of discovery!

Check out my ebook on Apple iBooks or Blurb.ca.  Check out the preview to see what it is all about!!

https://www.blurb.ca/ebooks/698460-noah-the-brave-little-bunny

(I discovered that if you are viewing it on your iPhone, landscape orientation is key! I know, I know– I live in a cave!)

If you want a printed copy, it is also available on Amazon.ca or contact me!

https://www.amazon.ca/gp/product/B07V7K8LR9?pf_rd_p=46535598-d2e0-4bc4-8392-182d8c1e93fc&pf_rd_r=0NB4P124T72ZPXXHBMMN

Let me know what you think!  I would love to hear what you guys think!!!

I guess I can now legitimately call myself a children’s book author?!

Have a good weekend, everyone!

Debbie.